Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in Mike Omernik's LiveJournal:

Saturday, August 6th, 2005
11:08 pm	AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! I totally fucking forgot I had this shit! Hmm... I wonder if I can craft a usefull sentence that uses all the swear words I know, with no explitive redundancy... I will work on this for the next post. It has come to my attention (after looking back and re-reading my old posts) that I only seem to post when I am pissed off... well, guess what!? Today Im NOT pissed! Woohoo. So, in the 8 months its been, in short, the big things that happened to me where I survived another semester, decided on a major, got a girlfriend, got fired, and went to Japan. Boring stuff first: Decided to Major in Business and Psychology. Because I like psych, and can make money with business... why not combine the two? Got fired from Pops Club... forgot to call in 15 minutes before my shift after calling in sick. Gay rule. Dont care, didnt really like it there, seeing as I was passed up for Supervisor again. Bastards. Lol. Got a girlfriend. Her name is Jessica Ried. Shes a 19 going on 20 year old freshman (I guess sophomore now) who lives in Liz waters. Shes blond, blue eyed, 5'9" and 114 pounds. One of the most gorgeous girls on the planet, too. Damn shes fine. Got a fiesty personallity, but hey, im down with that. Very class too, always dresses pretty, and looks good no matter what, without even trying... and when she DOES try, other girls give her dirty looks shes so fine. But fiesty... I like it. Lots. Then theres Japan... where do I start about that silly island nation? Maybe with the fact that their writing system is the most complited on earth? Or that their pickup trucks only come up to my armpits? MAN, is that place packed! The streets are so small, as are the cars, and there are bikes everywhere! Nearly got run over like, 100 times. On the other hand, everyone was very polite. Maybe thats just because nobody came up to my shoulders, but I'd like to blame it on the culture. It was just a really cool place. Visting medival castles and ancient temples was really awesome... we dont have anythign older than MAYBE 400 years in US... and it was neat going to the place where the filmed some of the last samurai, some of which was 1000 years old. Japan if fucking metal. I have a million more things to say, but I am tired, and my fingers hurt. Sayonara. (Comment on this)
Monday, January 24th, 2005
2:20 am	Why do I do this to myself? So yeah, I have been hanging out with a group of friends here in madison this semester. They are really cool, and I love all of them. In fact, this year was the first year I EVER bought christmas gifts for just friends... But like all things in my life, I have appeared to fuck this up, and good. The problem is, there were two girls who had issues with each other. Now, I got them together, and attempted to moderate a discussion between them, knowing that if someone was helping them, they would for sure reach a conclusion favorable to everyone, including the group of friends on the whole. This doesnt seem like a big problem... but it was quickly becoming one. As I saw it, the whole group was beginning to polarize against one of my friends. The problems the group people were having with her, at best seemed baseless, and at worst seemed immature and purposfully hurtful. So I attempted to deal with this situation, using all the skills I have learned in my 20 years of solving my own problems, and those of many friends. I dont know if its because this group is all freshmen, and they dont have the maturity level to confront each other and actually DEAL with their problems, or what, but it just did not work. And before you judge me, most of the sophomores in my dorm have been here a year already, and already have groups of friends... I just moved in, and basically left all my friends from my previous dorm experiences behind. In reality, I dont think much of my previous friends thought very much of me, and was welcoming the chance to start over. But start over I did, and I feel in with this group of freshmen nicely, mainly cuz they were in the same boat as me. As I will surely be judged on my actions tonight, the first thing that everyone is going to point out is that if I hadnet told the first girl, Julie, that people had problems with her, no confrontation would have occured. This IS true. But, if I didnt tell her, then she would have remained ignorant of all the crap people were doing to her behind her back. And thats just not right. I mean, if anyone were in her shoes, I KNOW they would have wanted me to tell them. I know I was absolutely right in letting Julie know that people were talking bad to her behind her back. She would have figured it out some time anyway, as she is intelligent. And later, who knows, it maybe would not have been an issue, or it could have been ten times worse. I stand by my decision. The second thing is was that I tried to "Moderate" a discussion between Julie and Jess, girl with a lot of issues about Julie. And this was my problem with Jess. Jess is highly non confrontational. Shes deathly afraid of it. Julie is highly confrontational. In this, I believe Julie is right and shows more maturity. Because Jess handled the situation like this: She told her boyfriend her opinion about Julie. And he told everyone he knew. He and I had a talk, and he basically said he does this because thinks people need to know these things, which agrees with me. In fact, he agreed with a lot of things I said. But then afterwards, I heard that he was just "Putting up with me". If this was the case, then that just shows me how truly mature the people around me are. But yeah, I digress. So Jess told her boyfriend her views and Julie, and he told everyone. At the dinner table. So now that EVERYONE in the group basically knew Jess's opinion, that had the effect of polarizing the group. Its like a school of fish. One fish darts one way, and the rest speed up to follow. Soon everyone was agreeing on how "bad" a person Julie was. It was horrible. Julie was a really close, really awesome friend. It made me sick how these people trash talked a person who, not 5 minutes ago, if you asked them if she was a good friend of theirs, most of them would have said yes. So, I decided to fix the situation. And I used a hammer instaid of a scaple. I immediately confronted the people involved. Yes, confrontation is not fun, but its really the only way to solve stuff. Whining to other people solves NOTHING!! But... nobody could handle it. My good friend and Julies boyfriend Yoh more pissed at me than I have ever seen him at anyone in the time I have known him. I doubt Jess will ever talk to me again, and Keaton... well, he has just been "putting up with me", so I bet he will continue to be nice to my face and talk shit when I turn around. Thats not surprising. Keaton is the youngest of us, and it does show. The 3 years between us makes a huge difference. The person I really worry about is Julie. Shes not taking this well... she has had troubles with friends grouping against her in the past too... which I find so sad, cuz Julie is the coolest, funniest, most talented person I have ever met. I think people are just jealous of her... the figure out how to make her life miserable because they dont have the things she does. Man. I was hoping to get people who reforged a friendship after some huge adversity become friends again. And by the way people are treating Julie... I mean, the problem isnt Julie. I have NEVER had a problem with Julie. Not once. These people are creating the problems, and then find it easy and convienent to use Julie as a scapegoat. She doesnt really notice how people do this to her. I am sort of sorry I showed it to her... but I could not, with a clear mind, let people say these things about her. Tonight has really reinforced my theory that Humankind is the worst thing that ever happened to this planet... maybe we should have just nuke ourselves to complete destuction. God knows, we deserve it. Current Mood: numb (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, January 7th, 2005
4:32 pm	111,111,111 multiplied by 111,111,111 equals 12,345,678,987,654,321, which is a palindromic number. So now you know. Isnt that a completely wonderful piece of useless information? I bored. Winterbreak is cool, dont get me wrong. I can basically do whatever I want, as my place of summer employment doesnt operate during the winter... and the food during the Christmast and New Years weeks are just wonderful. Leftovers are amazing. But its sort of boring. I miss the things I can do in Madison, namely my friends. Well, drinking with friends. Haha, my mom would shit kittens if I got a bunch of friends together and drank. Theres just not that much to do here in point. I think I read 6 novels in 2 days. And these are decent sized novels. W00t. I have even had the Xbox set up... but have only played 4 times total over break... twice with friends, and twice by myself... and the times I played with myself (hahaha) I did for only a short period of time. I dont know whats wrong with me. I guess most people would consider my lack of video game playing a good thing, but its somewhat out of character of me. Maybe I'm finally growing up. Speaking of growing up, those of you who know him may or may not know what I am talking about, but I am still having problems with a certain person, Eric Hopfensperger. Eric and I used to be very good friends. We've paintballed together, played lots of Halo, did cool stuff like friends do... and then went to college, and became very immature. Well, I am at some fault. One day while we were working on a paintball field, I had to borrow a belt from him. It was a nice belt, and one he liked. As it was the only belt I had, I used it for a little bit, meaning to get it back to him, yet I cept forgetting. Then Eric went crazy... we both went to college, I to Madison, he to Platteville. And he started prank calling me. And man, if he chooses to be annoying, he can be really goddamn annoying! Actually, there was one other event that percipitated this... Me and exgirlfriend, Lisa, broke up a little ways into the school year. Lisa, being a REAL good friend of Eric's, had visited him once in P-ville. During this time, we were having some hard times with our relationship being long distance, as Lisa went to UW Stevens Point, and I really screwed some things up with us. But yeah, Lisa visted Eric more than she visted me... and one day, she was going to pick me up and give me a ride home... but the day before that, she ended up staying the night at Erics frat house in P-ville. The next morning, as she drove me home, she dumped me. I should have seen it coming, but it was still a major shock. I tried promising to her that I would do better, and that its time that I had really tried to make our relationship work. But no, she dumped me, saying she had to do it. Now, the event that got Eric started off on me... besides the whole belt thing (which he may have overreacted, just a little), one night, about 2 weeks after Lisa dumped me, I was getting pretty drunk with some friends... I remembered that Lisa spent the night with Eric the day before she dumped me, so Drunken Mike put two and two together, and I was convinced that Lisa dumped me for Eric, and that it was Erics actions who broke me and Lisa up, not mine. So drunken dialed him, and left a mean voicemail saying what a bastard he was, and stuff. Then the prank calls started. And man, did they go on! Over winter break, he would call me (usually he was drunk) and leave disgusting voice mails, and make lewd comments, and stuff like that. And he would usually call around midnight or 1:00 ish, even calling at 3:00 one night. I was getting tired of being woken up by him. Also, I was at a party one night, and he kept calling my phone, over and over, forcing me to turn it off, and preventing other friends from contacting me. When the prank calles started up again over spring break, I had enough. I gave him fair warning that I was going to call the police to get him to end his harrassment, and like most stupid people when threatened like this, he attempted to call my bluff. He called back 5 minutes later. I promptly called the Police, and, feeling generous, I just registered my complaint, and didnt have them do anything. I gave Eric warning that this happened, and had a friend warn him, just in case. Well, I got a prank call a bit later when I was in school, and it sounded a lot like him. So I called UW Polic, they contacted him and his parents about the situation, and it stoped there. He didnt get into any official trouble, just a warning, and whatever his parents did to him. Since that happened, he has left me alone. We even got together at a party and talked, and while we werent close to being friends, we agreed to a truce, so to speak. Since then, he has been quiet, up until now. Also, since then, he has started dating Lisa, go figure... The other day, MSN name was Weasel: When the going gets tough, the tough get laid!. It was a rather funny statement I made to a friend while talking to him about his girlfriend and dating situation. It just sort of popped out, and we both sat their laughing about it for awhile. I thought it was funny (and strange) enough to become my MSN name for a few days. Note, that I had deleted Eric from my MSN by now. Then the other day, I was at a friends house, who had both me and Eric on his MSN. I saw Erics name then. It said "Since when does tough mean calling the cops on a party and getting the crap beat out of you" This refers to some trouble I had with some people from my old dorm, Sellery. And his facts are way off, I didnt call the cops on a party. But that doesnt matter... the thing that gets me is that I thought we were through with this crap. How do you get someone to grow up? What does it take to get someone to stop taking every oppertunity he can to get under your skin? Since the prank calling stared, I returned his stupid belt, and made one call to him warning him that a lot of our mutual friends thought he was being really stupid, and that if he didnt shape up, a lot of people would really start not liking him (I wasnt the only person he was going out of his way to annoy at the time). I havent done anything since that call, and that was way before spring break. WHY ARE PEOPLE LIKE THIS??? Man, that felt really good to get off my chest. If anyone has any -helpful- advice, I wouldnt mind hearing it. However, I bet most of you out there reading this really dont give a crap. Which is fine. It just makes me feel good to type about all the fucked up shit that goes on in my life. Lata, yo. Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)
Friday, December 10th, 2004
3:07 pm	The internet is a fickle beast... The Net is a wonderful thing... so much information, music, and files at your disposal... I could literally spend hours a day online, making posts in forums, and on live journals, and just waste me life away here... hell, if it provided me with food, I actually might! Just kidding. There is only one problem with the internet... Cyber Trolls. Trolls are creatures who feel safe in the anonymousness that the internet provides... these people make posts in forums, and my live journals, with the only intent to piss people off. The only people who have the link to my Live Journal are on my AIM list. And someone off that list is being a troll. Hey, if you have something to say to me, why be anonymous about it? Oh, right, all you say is stupid things. Cuz you are a troll. Well, fortunately for me, I can make the Live Journal screen out anonymous users. So, if you want to make a stupid comment, you are going to have to tell me who you are, but please by no means, dont let that stop you. Log into the Live Journal system, so you can share your brilliance with all of us. Current Mood: annoyed (Comment on this)
Tuesday, December 7th, 2004
1:20 pm	Warning: This life will self-destruct in 5.....4..... 3......2......1.... BLAM!!! Thats the sound of my life exploding around me. You ever get that feeling? One day, things are going pretty good, and everything is under control... then without warning, it all goes up in flames? I just had one of those days. So I wasnt picked to be Supervisor at work. Last time they didnt pick me, they told me that I was a great cannidate, its just I didnt have the on the job experience they wanted. Yeah, okay, I can handle that, cuz I only had 1 semesters worth of work in. But this time, I have had 3, and I am clearly one of the senior members at work. I basically supervise the new people anyways, and most other people on my shifts... yet again the job goes to someone with "more experience". "But you were very qualified, Mike. You definately were down to the one of the last people cut. You definately need to apply again next semester, when we have an opening again!" Thanks Mario! But our princess is in another castle! I even wore a fucking suit to the interview... And for some reason, I have been letting myself be drawn into arguments defending the fact that I play video games and enjoy them. But here, I am going to break it down, nice and simple, so EVERYONE can understand this: I like entertainment. Most people do. Its a fact of life. Heres the bomb: VIDEO GAMES ENTERTAIN ME. Is that a big deal? Some people like watching TV a lot. I do a little. Some people spend countless houres watching movies... I spend a little bit of time doing that. Some people read a lot. I do read alot also. Some people play sports for entertainment. So do I. THESE THINGS ARE ALL THE SAME! Each one of them "wastes" time equally. Each one has side benefits, but all are equal. If you dont like video games, fine. DONT PLAY THEM. And dont whine to me about it, for the love of god. You arnt going to change me. It will just piss me off. If you think its a waste of time, go read your magazines or watch you TV shows. I dont bitch to you how THEY waste YOUR time, do I? I can if you want me to though. Let other people live their lives. You should have plenty going on in your own to worry about... if you dont, then you need to get a life. And then theres this girlfriend thing. So, it happens that the girl I sorta kinda thought I was in a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship with had a completely differnt idea of what our relationship was. This only turns my world of expectations upside down a LITTLE. Just when I am happy, something comes up. It never fails. Just when you think you may have women figured out, they do something like this. WHAT THE HELL AM I SUPPOSED TO DO? I cant take this anymore. How about... if I dont talk to women, then they wont be able to fuck up my life. God, its really too bad I dont like men. If I ever needed a reason to be gay, here it is: YOU DONT HAVE TO DEAL WITH WOMEN. And finals are nearly upon us... just to add to the shit that is my life. Why is it that all the classes I really like are the really fucking hard ones? This just compounds the social problems I have in my life. How much can one person be expected to take before its reasonable for them to break down? Cuz when I do, it really wont be pretty. Wow, 2 posts, back to back. You people should feel speical. Oh, and if anything I wrote here bugs you or pissed you off, remember... I didnt MAKE you read it. Current Mood: pissed off (Comment on this)
Monday, December 6th, 2004
10:29 pm	Here's your update, biotch. FYI, that "biotch" isnt towards anyone in particular. So yeah, its been a very long time since I updated my journal. I've been kinda busy. Halo 2 has come out since then, and that has something to do with it. Which leads up to a general question: What problem do girls have with video games? Why is it a problem for a guy to play games, usually with multiple friends online, for a couple of hours? It can't be that its a waste of time, because if that were the case, then girls waste a lot of time watching moves. You know you do. IF you dont want me to bitch about that, then dont complain about my game playing. Is it because its anti social? Not anymore. With Xbox Live, the internet service for Xbox, I can play with up to 16 dudes that I know. I cant fit 16 guys into my room to watch a movie. Do you wonder why guys take video games so seriously? Because we are competing against said friends. If I screw up in front of those 15 guys, they are gonna give me some heat for it. However, if I beat everyone else down, I get respected for it. Also, any girl who has ever played solitair, or mindsweeper for any period of time, you are doing the exact same thing. You are playing video games. And dont give me this "in mindsweeper you have to use your brain". I fucking use my brain to plan strategy in Halo 2 more than most girls I know use THEIR brains all day. Guys spend hours playing video games. Girls think its a waste of time. Girls spend hours shopping, and maybe get 1 item. Guys think thats a waste of time. When I shop, I average 4 items per half an hour. I get it done, and dont waste time on stupid things. Guys arnt going to change their video game habits, and girls arnt going to change their shopping habits. Girls, us guys have realized this. If you cant realize this about guys, I suggest you start liking other girls, cuz you will never be happy then. And yes, I realize that I am making a huge sterotype here, but come on. A lot of guys play video games, but not all of them. A lot of girls spend inordinate amounts of time shopping, but not all of them do. I realize this. Get off my back. In other news, I am allowed to say I have a girlfriend now. This has really changed my life. Its much easier to focus on things, and I feel way better about my self as a person. The only problem is that she is going away to africa in a couple of weeks. Thats gonna suck... but hey, its great. I wished it would last longer, but its been real great. Thanks baby. And now another paragraph that is gonna piss a good friend off... but the question I ask is, what do I do when I know a person who is really in love with a person she really should be? My friend, who I will name Beth (not even close to her real name, but she knows who she is), is going out with a guy, who I will call Dave. Beth really loves Dave, and has for a long time.... at the beginning of this year she finally got together with him, and she really couldnt be happier... except that Dave... is not a very good boyfriend, in my humble opinion. When a man a considered a girls boyfriend, he needs to treat her like it. Dave does not do this. He hardly ever does anything special for Beth, and she has even complained to him how he doesnt do any any of the little things that guys can do to make girls feel nice. This tells me that this guys is unable to see other peoples feelings. He doesnt know hes hurting her, he just doesnt see these things. And hes not going to change... thats the sad thing. Hes not used to having to give his girlfriends REAL respect, and isnt used to constantly going out of his way to make her feel special. She does for him. Most girls, in my experience, are good at making their man feel special... we need to return the favor. But Dave doesnt. And I doubt he ever will... Beth deserves much more than this, yet she has this almost child-like infatuation with Dave. She has been very attracted to him for a long time. They share some interests, and have a couple friend in common, and Dave is considerably better looking than a lot of guys... and I think that may be part of the problem... just like how some guys will put up with a lot of crap from a really hot "trophy" girlfriend, I think Beth may be blinded a bit by Daves looks, so that she doesnt really see how bad he treats her. The fact that she has had to talk to him a couple times now about how he isnt treating her right, tells me that it isnt worth it. Honey, when is enough going to be enough? You deserve much better. I am not saying you should dump him for me or anything, but I am saying that I know plenty of nice guys who would go the extra distance for you. You say you are in love with him... I think its really just a huuuge crush. You know other girls who have boyfriends... how do their men treat them? I think you will find, that compared to your friends, you are getting the short end of the stick. Do yourself some good... listen to your friend from home... get a guy who can make you feel good about yourself, 24/7. If a guy doesnt, hes not worth going out with. Heres another subject... why do my football teams keep screwing up? First the Badgers shoot themselves in the foot, and lose an easy ride to the Rose Bowl, and dont even get me started about the Packers loss to the Eagles. They got their asses handed to them on a silver platter, with a side order of whoop ass. It was terrible... I mean, the Eagles are the best team in the NFC, and one of the best teams in the NFL... I understand that the Packers were pretty good underdogs, and I sorta figured this game for a loss... but come on, I had hoped that Green Bay would at least make it sorta close... or at least LOOK like they were trying. But no. Well... theres always the Lions next week.... I think I am done now. If I dont get to this again, have a happy holidays! (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 31st, 2004
6:49 pm	Your Ma So the packers get another win... which of course means that Kerry will take the white house. Its true... for every president since Roosevelt, or that is to say, since the Redskins have been in Washington DC, the last homegame they play before the election determins who win. If the 'Skins win, the incumbent wins, if they lose, the incumbent loses. So bye bye Bush, it was NOT nice knowing you. Still, with regards to anyone who still supports that Moron, just look at his campaing "strategery"... go to www.factcheck.org and check out all the bush lies... of course, Kerry isnt completely free of lying himself, but what politician is? Factcheck is non-partisan, so they wont put any spin on anything, they just give the facts. And the facts are rather hilarious... like Kerry voted 9 times to ban all shotguns... thats just plain lying. Bush and his rich allies will do anything to keep the house, I wouldnt be surprised if they started another war with another "weapons of mass destruction-terrorist harboring-threat to the free world-the world is better place if we kill them now" country. Honestly... Iraq alone is reason to not vote for Bush. Let me show you what I mean... We orginally invaded Iraq because "they have weapons of mass destruction, harbor terrorist, support Alqueda (spelling), and because Saddam poses a direct threat to us. Allow me to refute, using proven facts: THERE ARE NOT WEAPONS OF MASS DESTRUCTION IN IRAQ: The US Army, nor anyone else, has found any such weapons, or even any evidence that Saddam had new weapons since the last Gulf War. THE 9/11 COMISSION HAS PROVEN THAT SADDAM HAD NOTHING TO DO WITH ALQUEDA, OR WITH THE 9/11 ATTACKS: that speaks for itself. Read the document if you dont believe, Google Search it. SADDAM THREATES THE US: How? with his outdated Soviet T-72 Tanks? that we mopped off the face of the desert in 5 days? Yeah, thats very threatening. Remember, Saddam did not attack us, or anyone for that matter. The only thing he has done was harrass some fo the weapons inspectors we kept pushing on him. And let me ask you, would the US let weapons inspectors have access to our most secret government installations? No, we would not, and if you disagree with me there, you are deluding yourself. THE WORLD IS A BETTER PLACE NOW THAT SADDAM IS GONE AND WE MADE IRAQ A DEMOCRACY: Well, lets see here now... How many people were getting killed on a daily basis in Iraq before we invaded? Is that more than there are now? Before, people lived in fear that if you said something bad about Saddam, he could come after you and your family... now people are living in fear of support the US troops, cuz if they do, the Terrorists will kill them and their family... that and the fact that they might take a stray bullet on their way into work... Oh yeah, Iraq is much more peace full now... And, who died and made US the freedom cops of the world? Where is it written that the US must force our particular brand of government on everyone else? When is it going to stop? It seems to me that North Korea is a huge threat to world security, you know, them having nukes and all... do we take them over next? Then hit up Iran, cuz they seem to be pursuing Nuclear weapons.... and those Pakastanis, and India... always threatening each other with THEIR nukes... China is Communist, doesnt have freedom, AND has nukes, so we better go "liberate" them. And Great Brittain still has a queen... that needed to go a long time ago, those silly brits, we might as well invade them and fix their government for them.... The US is not in charge of making sure everyone in the world is playing nice... to do that, we would have take the world over. We would become the Imperial State of America.... I get dibs on Darth Vader. The War in Iraq is total bullshit... AMERICANS died because Bush decided to go to war on faulty intel, that the government KNEW was shady... true, Kerry and Edwards both voted TO GIVE THE PRESIDENT THE POWER TO INVADE, not to actually do it... in fact, the resolution said that invasion would be a last resort, ONLY if the president has exhausted ALL diplomatic possibilities... and oh, he tried being diplomatic about it... "Saddam, leave Iraq in 48 hours or ELSE" That truely inspiring... he certianly knows how to talk to people, that George W. Bush. Americans are dying every day because of Bushes Ill concieved plans... there are far fewers US Allies in this world now because of Bushes actions in Iraq... And not to mention how stupid bushs domestic policy is... but hey, if you are rich, then go ahead, vote Bush. Vote for the fact that you wanna fuck over all the people who arnt as privaledged as you, who dont have health insurance, or who cant pay for school... If you think about those things, and still vote republican, you are a cold motherfucker, and exemplify everything that is wrong with this country. Its people like you who make America hated by terrorists. But hey, keep at it! As long as YOU get your tax breaks, and can buy that $40,000 dollar car instead of a $25,000 one, why should you care about the rest of world? Wow, this post started nice, with my being happy about a Packers win... but now, I hate republicans... not conservatives, I am a conservative.... I just think for myself, and know that Bush is wrong for America. I dont know that Kerry is right. I doubt he has all the answers... but hey, he cant do much worse than Bush... and there is a very good chance that he could better. Vote Bush. Vote to Fuck over America. But dont complain to me when America is a much shittier place in 4 four years... hell, if Bush stays in, he will probably do so much damage that it would take at least 10 years to fix it, but I am guessing more like 20. So, vote your conscious. But I will hold you responsible for every American death abroad, how much I have to pay for gas, and how much I have to pay for health care. Current Mood: determined (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 24th, 2004
1:40 am	Hmm... second entry. Hmmmmmmmmmmm Harummmmm... thats the noise TreeBeard makes. You know, from Lord of the Rings. Its really kinda late. I shouldnt type into this thing when its this late. Hey, if you are reading this from my buddy info on aim, then you should do one of these. Its really great, like when you need to vent, and all your friends arnt around... you can just blow off some steam into cyber space... So, my mood morose right now. Yeah, that pretty much sums me up. I have way to much O Chem to do by next Wednesday, and I dont know how I am gonna do it... I dont even know why I take that class... its too fucking hard, and it looks like I am not gonna be doing Pre Med anyways... Psychology looks way better... and its still helping people, but I think in some cases its harder than say, just surgery. When a person is pysically sick, by now, doctors know what you need to do, just rip 'em open and fix it, and sew 'em back up. But when a person is sick mentally, you cant just stick a scapel in there and fix it. The tools a psychologist uses are far more subtle... So, we know what to do when a persons body is sick... and we have some pretty good ideas of what to do when their mind is sick, but what about when a person's soul is sick? When a person is lacking in spirituality, what then? Of course, the Catholic Church has its ideas, along with every major religion... but thats bullshit. Religion is just another tool used by man to subjugate his fellow men (and women, too). Don't you think its funny that every religion says that you must only follow it, and that every other one is wrong? I mean, why are the Catholics right? Cuz they have the Bible? Cuz they had Christ, and he did a whole shit load of miracles? What about Islam? They have a nifty book, the Koran... and Mohammed was a pretty cool guy. Judiadism has Abraham, and all that jazz... actually, come to think of it, Buddhism is the only major religion in the world that DOESNT say you must worship only its gods (it doesnt have any) and that you must have blind faith, and that you must follow it or burn in hell for all eternity... Buddhism doesnt actually sound that bad. I guess thats my biggest problem with the Roman Catholic Church, the church that I was baptized and confirmed in. First, you must obey an all powerfull god who sees fit to let some of his most devout followers suffer. My grandma has cancer, and she has been as devout as can be... and now she has to suffer. So we have this seemingly benevolent god, whos really just a dick. You MUST believe in him, and ONLY him, even though you never see him, and he doesnt really talk much. At least, not to me, and I have asked him too many, many times. And his church... oh, dont even get me started. The Catholic church is so corrupt its pathetic. Pedophile priests who just get shuffled around to different parishes... the Vatican is so rich, yet every year they keep asking for more money. Oh, and also, its a sin to vote for a Democrat. Like I said, its just a tool to give men power over others. I think the church is whats wrong with this world. Get rid of it, and you will see a vast improvement. Wow, that was a bit of ramble, and a huge chuch bashing at once. Well, whatever. Send comments to "thehungweasel" on AIM or "wiredfrisbee@hotmail.com" for MSN. If you wanna talk faith, thats great... if you can show me the way, that would be amazing, but I am warning you, I might show you something your faith cant handle. Mike. ...and thats the way the cookie crumbles Current Mood: morose (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, October 22nd, 2004
12:18 am	First Post This is my first Live Journal post... ever. Its kinda creepy, just typing into cyberspace, and seeing who reponds... I am not real big on random internet meetings, and if a Live Journal does anything, it encourages people to talk to each other. hmmm.... I am actually sorta depressed right now... but those reasons are complicated. Well, I guess the whole reason I did this Live Journal thing was to vent out some. You see, I am ALWAYS there, ready to talk to any of my friends, whenever they need it. I have also found that I have some skill in helping them resolve any problems they have. I guess its because whatever they are going through, I have already been there. I dont think that I have experienced more than the average 20 year old, but I feel that for some reason, I am able to remember my experiences well, and dwell on them with good, constructive thoughts. I am very good at learning from my experiences, and am very willing to share my insights with others. I also give great relationship help... move over Dr. Phil, theres a new cowboy in town... ... where was I? Oh yeah, venting. You see, my problem is that while I am always there for my friend, they seem to never be there when I am feeling the most depressed, and when I need to talk to them the most... I am sure its not their fault, but it still hurts. Lately, I have become very depressed about my girlfriend situation... that is, I dont have one, and cant for the life of me get one. I do meet with girls... in fact, I spend more time with girls than I do guys... its just they are never interested in me. And I have gotten very little support from my friends... all I hear is "Dont try to hard" and "Be yourself, let the women come to you". My last relationship lasted a year and 7 months... it was the most wonderful year and 7 months of my life. When I have a girlfriend, I have a center, and anchor in my life that keeps me from going astray. Not having one for a year now, especially at college where you are supposed to be able to meet lots of available women, its really grating on me. It pisses me off, actually... here I am, more than able to solve most of my friends problems with significant others, but I cant even net myself a girlfriend. It makes me feel pathetic. And just recently, I have become numb. I have just stopped feeling about anything. I tried talking to a friend, and got no support... my life feels like its a black and white movie without sound... and the music they play in the background broke.... Getting that out helped a bit. If you are still with me, you are pretty tough, to have survived all of that without laughing yourself to death or falling asleep. A little bit of color has returned, but not much. I still dont care. Mike..... over and out. Current Mood: apathetic (Comment on this)